A Fun Trip, And A Philosophy

So I went to Edmonton with Kibilz and his family for a weekend. It was fun, mostly because his little girl Sylvan was with us. She is 5 years old so it was amusing to see her have fun. Hit the Galaxy Land, which is a giant amusement park inside a mall. West Edmonton Mall is one of the biggest fuck off malls ever built, so it’s safe to say that no one from Edmonton shops there. Fair enough, there we are, having a good time. Sylvan wouldn’t go on most of the rides because of the fear, she inherits this from her Dad, more on that in a second, but the rides she did go on she had a blast.
I went on the big fuck off rollercoaster there. Kibilz didn’t because he’s a coward :)
That’s ok, whatever works. That rollercoaster there is pretty fun though, he missed out big time. After going on a few other rides we wandered around the mall and looked at some stuff. We didn’t buy anything really. There were a few cool shirts I could get, but they were way over priced for what they were. I will never spend $100 on a ripped up shirt, no matter how cool it looks. I did find a new Trench coat though, as my old one is falling apart. I didn’t get to buy it due to not enough time spent in Edmonton, but I bought it at the same store here in Calgary when I got back.

I digress

We ate some good food, Shot filthy water at each other in the bumper boats, played some mini golf, and collapsed in our hotel rooms.
The next day we hit the Water Park. I love that fucken place. It’s not a complete rip for an all day pass and the slides are great fun. They also have a bungee jump right above the wave pool. About 106 feet above it in fact, and I thought what great fun it would be to do that. Safe to say the other vacationers thought I was insane. They thought right of course(see later bit of entry…when you eventually get to it..) so after swimming and slipping and sliding, I inquired about how much it was going to cost me to jump 100ft and not die. The price scared me more. $80 fucking dollars man! So I said no to the bungee. Maybe when I’m richer I can be that stupid. Friends even offered to put a few bucks towards it, but it wasn’t nearly enough.

Ah Well.

After this we met up with Scoob and Toque and played more mini golf. This time it was illuminated by black light so everything glowed all wicked. We said goodbye to them and went off to our rooms and rested once again. The next day we left and returned home, all in all was pretty fun…as I said above…..

The day I got home I was spotted in a local mall(to get my coat) by Sprinkler and was attacked. I find when women attack it’s very pleasant, although I am nice to them. If I was mean to them I would hate to see what would happen then.

AMUSSMENT!!


I recently discovered a few things you need in order to live in a world such as ours.
It isn’t a perfect system and is indeed a paradox, but seriously, what isn’t now a days?

Insanity

We are raised thinking there’s structure and a natural order of things in the life we live in.

That is absolute bollocks. When you finish building your house of cards, be it way of life, belief system, or easier route to work, life will come in at one time or another and fuck it up good and proper. There is nothing wrong with that, it’s just life. A lot of people get very angry at this and do some horrible things. The key is to be insane, and laugh a lot because the world is insane and someone is most likely laughing at you somewhere. Take risks! Brave the odds, and trust your instincts when you think you should stop. Yeah you might die so? Everyone does that, it’s just a question of when, how, and how many you’re taking with you, and for fuck sakes stop taking everything so damn seriously. Some people say that there are some subjects you can’t laugh at. Balderdash!
911 for example, is a subject that a lot of people feel they can’t laugh at. Why not?
Sure people died, I understand that. That’s Tragic. The more you brood though the more these terrorists have done their job. It’s more likely that a terrorist will be more offended that their “Statement” has turned into a joke than you will. Isn’t that progress in of itself?
I’m getting off topic anyhow….. You have to be crazy, to live in a crazy world.

Next thing…

Care

In this life you have to care about some thing. Not everything of course(See my next point) but caring about what you live on and the people around you is important.
I know you’re thinking that perhaps not caring is easier, that you can manipulate and use people all your life if you’re good enough and serve yourself. Well you can certainly, but eventually people will catch on, and do the same thing to you in turn. We are all social beings. That’s a glorified way of saying herd, sad but true, and we need each other. Sometimes we need somebody. Somebody to laugh with, somebody to cry with, somebody to drink and hang out with, someone to fuck, and it feels right if it’s genuine.
You have to give a damn about people to have a chance at them giving a damn about you. It isn’t 100% as you are still going to get used in life, but I find it gives you better odds.
I don’t have many close friends, but the ones I do have are fucking brilliant, so the method has worked for me.


Apathy

A friend Neal inspired this one. You have to care, but like anything, you have to know when to stop. Caring too much will wear you thin so know where to draw the line. You can’t do everything and save everyone on your own. Also along this line, some people are complete bastards. You may offend with your words and actions, and sometimes they are right and you may be humbled. I’m not talking about those times though, I’m talking about bastards. If your music is too loud for somebody and it is a decent hour, say noon….fuck em, let them deal with it. If people don’t dig what you wear, shove their opinion right up their ass. Caring is important, but life is too short to care that much.
Find a healthy balance between Caring and Apathy and you’re good.


Suffering

Now some people would like to rid the world of suffering. Not me.

Why? I’ll tell you. Suffering is almost always a learning experience. It’s one of those things that speeds growth a lot of the time. I know it is certainly the case with me. Suffering sucks I know, a lot of things suck in life, but they get better and you move on. And when you do, you’re most likely a better person for it by surviving. Maybe it’s the “goth” in me but I wouldn’t be the person I am today with out suffering. Don’t try to drown it when it happens, it will only take longer to go away. People don’t learn most of the time till they get hurt, so in the long run I don’t think suffering should be abolished. We have a lot to learn yet.

So don’t forgo something just because there is a risk you’ll suffer. Chances are either way you’ll be better for it somehow in the future.

That’s my Rhyme …take it to the streets BIATCH!

And with that, here’s your Educational Ghetto Moment.


Rainbows

It’s just water and light fuckin witcho eyes!

Olive Branch? SNAP!!!

I’m Pissed.

I have no idea why, although I guess it could be a lot of things adding up.

It’s just one of those days I guess. I just woke up, and was angry at a bunch of things. Things that don’t even really matter to tell you the truth, but when put together maybe it gives me a good enough reason, I don’t know.
One of them though was realizing, after a while that someone that was supposed to be a friend, really isn’t. Now there were signs that this was already happening well before I realized it, I just give too many benefits of too many doubts. I know that about myself.

There was a time not too long ago this person and I were close, but all of a sudden we weren’t. OK, friends it is then….but it really isn’t. Not when 6 months go by without a decent conversation. That isn’t what friends do. I did a lot of understanding. More than most people are willing to do, and some of the reasons given for being so distant, were in a word, understandable. But I don’t care how much is going on in life, there is always time to shoot off a quick e-mail or what not to show you give a good God damn.

That is what I believe anyhow.

I thought that this person was a good friend and maybe in their mind we are I don’t know.

What exactly do we do to deserve this shit? I try to be good…better than most as more than one person will attest to…except one, one that I’ve hurt quite a bit. If this is happening to me because of that well, I get exactly what I deserve I suppose.

I think it is because all people are selfish, some just have differing degrees of it. You need to be a little selfish if you want to get what you want out of life. But it isn’t like this person doesn’t know I exist. At one point I was considered part of this persons family, and now I’m not given the time of day.
I guess when the anger goes away as it does, I’m just left with disappointment and after that I realize it is this persons loss, because basically, I’m fucking fantastic.

I guess this could make me feel a little upset. On top of it it’s just little things. Everyone at work wants everything, all the time, right fucking now, all at once. But that as they say, is just life.

Who knows though, I could be doing the same thing to someone and not know it, but I don’t think so. A lot of it though makes me want to kill….a lot.

I’ll live, I’ll deal. Weeeeeeee

Anyhow, not much new going on really. Neal and I haven’t had a lot of time to record music as sometimes his work schedule get the best of him. That’s ok, we got some good shit down this weekend and hopefully we can use it all in future songs, to be posted of course! We are even going to give an improve spoken word type performance at a club called The Soda Lounge tomorrow night.

Halloween was alright but it was definitely kind of disappointing as well. I had more fun at the zombie walk.

I am sorry about the whining. That is what blogs are for after all but I would like to at least mention something positive. I must go for now. But here are a few things before I go.


Did you know caffeine could cause serious delirium?

And here is your Ghetto Educational Moment

“Penicillin……….It’s MOLD BITCHES!”