I feel Sundered

Its been one of those months. Not all bad, not all good, but definitely something tiring about it. At least I can sort of see a way out from where I'm standing.

Hey all. Things have been busy, or not...I'm not sure really, but I know I've done some stuff that's for sure.

My internet radio station is up to over 150 hours with out repeating a song, and more to come as it were.

If you wish to take a listen go to www.shoutcast.com. In the search window, type either, Nightmares, Whispers and Screams or just simply Nightmares. Sometimes the search option is a bit odd and it says it doesn't find thing that are actually there. Anyhow, when you find it you can bookmark it in winamp and never have to worry about it again. Assuming you dig it.

Work has been exhausting. We used to have 3 IBM buildings and one IBM warehouse, now one of the buildings is shutting down and they are all moving to mine, which means more of a work load for me. Today for instance I didn't even get a chance to eat until I was almost done my shift. Apparently I should be getting a raise though, not to sure what the amount is, or when it is taking effect but it should help.

My sleep for the past 2 months has been off lately and with things going on emotionally and adjusting to the moving changes, it's hell sometimes. I try to create and write, play music, or anything like that and it always looks as if it's not really worth it, or it just plain sucks. Again the fortunate side of things is that I know that will change, the question is when.

It better happen soon because I'm getting more and more agitated with people. I know sometimes this is a good thing, because life is too short to put up with people shit head issues, but I have always been a diplomat socially. And I don't believe I have every truly lost my temper. People are starting to really annoy me and get to me. I just wish I knew if this is a little healthy intolerance or whether I'm just stressed. I wish I knew.

And yes, there is a such thing as healthy intolerance, see the bit above about putting up with people shit...

I did however contact the Radio station here in Calgary CJSW. I'm going to get my own show and try and find band contacts. I certainly have to do something, because the urge to just fall into a deep deep coma and wake up when its all better, is very tempting.

I am sorry, This is rather depressing I know.

It is however, one of those lifetimes.

But I want to say thank you to those who have been there for me. I'm lucky to have good friends.
Being a good friend isn't easy, as life can be a bitch, so I do appreciate it, as I will always be there for all of you when I can, and those who haven't been so close, I understand, and if I don't I try. Just don't forget about me.

er...This is getting mushier than mashed potatoes in a wet paper bag that has been thrown into something very mushy.

A Bright Side.

A world I have created for a game has spawned some characters in my head. I might just write about them. You fine readers will have your chance to read it here.

I saw Pirates of The Caribbean, the second one. Bloody Brilliant movie. If you liked the first one, and like those kinds of movies and aren't a total wanker, you will see it.

I'm off I think, but before I go, I have to show you all something.

I don't like Ska, but I do like 7 Seconds of Love.

I like the BAND....7 seconds of Love. 7 Seconds is way too short for love in my opinion,and there are those that know this about me and will agree.

It is a brilliant song called, Submarine.

Enjoy, and Thanks again...


....You fookin bastards!!!