"You're The Only One That Understands........Let's Burn EVERYTHING!!!!!!"
Ah...It has been a while......And my life well...It's turned topsy fucking turvy.
New years 05/06 was an interesting time.
It was the night that turned everything I knew inside out, for good and for bad.
I won't go over all the details but here is the gist.
Events happened that night to lead to the break up of my fiance of 5 years.
Perhaps it was a long time coming, I don't know. My life just changed overnight like a train that just suddenly switched tracks.....And like a train, I just kept on going, I didn't have a choice.
There are some reasons for this that I can name, and a lot of reasons I can't, all I know, was that it had to happen.
Because of this I had no reason to give my fiance, no good reason anyway, and I crushed her....
It's a horrible thing to do, and for that I'm a right bastard, but what could I do...?
I was only following what I felt was right.
Something positive came out of this thing though.......And it's growing.....
All things serve the whim of the great magnet....I feel it's pull every minute of every day......
Moving along to something less cryptic....I am moving to Calgary.
On the 21st of Feb I will arrive there. I have lots of chosen family out there....Among other things.......;) I have lots of real family out there too.
It is a new step on a new Journey, and even though what I did to my fiance will leave a scar that won't heal....Sometimes, there is nothing you can do but move forward.
Perhaps I am wrong about all of this and am doing the wrong thing.....But I don't think so.....
The Magnet pulls....And that gives me confidence and hope.
Until next time Kids......
New years 05/06 was an interesting time.
It was the night that turned everything I knew inside out, for good and for bad.
I won't go over all the details but here is the gist.
Events happened that night to lead to the break up of my fiance of 5 years.
Perhaps it was a long time coming, I don't know. My life just changed overnight like a train that just suddenly switched tracks.....And like a train, I just kept on going, I didn't have a choice.
There are some reasons for this that I can name, and a lot of reasons I can't, all I know, was that it had to happen.
Because of this I had no reason to give my fiance, no good reason anyway, and I crushed her....
It's a horrible thing to do, and for that I'm a right bastard, but what could I do...?
I was only following what I felt was right.
Something positive came out of this thing though.......And it's growing.....
All things serve the whim of the great magnet....I feel it's pull every minute of every day......
Moving along to something less cryptic....I am moving to Calgary.
On the 21st of Feb I will arrive there. I have lots of chosen family out there....Among other things.......;) I have lots of real family out there too.
It is a new step on a new Journey, and even though what I did to my fiance will leave a scar that won't heal....Sometimes, there is nothing you can do but move forward.
Perhaps I am wrong about all of this and am doing the wrong thing.....But I don't think so.....
The Magnet pulls....And that gives me confidence and hope.
Until next time Kids......
posted by Fictional Correspondant at 11:13 AM
1 Comments:
Hey God! I hope you're there.
I want you to hear my prayer.
That graven image on my shelf;
Is it really you or just myself?
Well, anyway, here it goes:
Please keep me on my toes.
Help me past my worst mistakes,
Doing it for both our sakes,
For an example of perfection
And not an example of vivisection;
Or merely for the Heaven of it,
Like bread, for the leaven of it.
For whatever reason my incline,
Please act for yours and mine.
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